leslieism

I thought I was having a mid-life crisis today, however, I’m only 32 and I am not actually facing any real crisis’…..so maybe it was a panic attack? I reflected a lot today…made me panicky….reflective panic attack?  I was attacked by panicky, reflective thoughts…..but then I told them to shut the F up.  I put my reflective-panic-attack-mid-life crisis in check.  Or on a shelf.  Possibly a file cabinet….that I don’t actually use files so much as I just throw shit inside it and smoosh it all down, pushing adamantly to shut the drawer.  It may not be the healthiest way to deal with a past full of heartache, but in my own ADHD chaos filled head, my organizational skills just make sense.  I live in choreographed craziness and I love it.